It's been months since I have blogged. I went through older posts, which included deleting some. Some of it's too personal for a public blog. Yes, I could make it private, but maybe someday someone will stumble upon my great thoughts here. This doesn't mean I will only write about things people will agree with. Shit, no one reads this beyond me for what I know.
Why write again? No, not a New Year's resolution. A mental health resolution and need. An outlet for the numerous thoughts I have in a day. An outlet for a very verbal person who has little time or close friends to talk. A place where I can say it.
So where are we? Back in school again. I'm now a "non-traditional" student. Meaning I'm old with kids. I am still teaching at the community college, which I love. My children are healthy and growing. We have a new puppy along with our old dog. Yes, the mundane details of life.
Where do I want to be? I want to be in a stable place. I want to be "home", which is not my hometown. I want to be near my friends who know me and I can laugh and just be there. I want to be near my children's cousins and grandparents to watch them laugh, play, and grow.
I want to feel better. I want to find that internal peace. I want all the suffering to end in my head, in the world, and everywhere. Again I am exposing a piece of my that's hard, but internal healing is needed. To heal others, we need to heal.
2012 will you be the year?
